烂心情

现在的心情， 好沉重。仿佛好像回到两年前的四月。 爱一个人真的很难。 要忘了深深爱过的人真的不容易。

这是不能說的秘密。。。

I told my mother something serious, something that she want to know but she knew she can't cope within such short period. Well, like what I said this is a secret that can't be told. Let keep it this way so everything will be the same again. Lying to myself cause this is the way of life of a weakling. People tends to believe and wants thing to be their way, but in the end, they are just deceiving themselves and others. For what?

I don't know the answer, caused I am still searching for one. Nevertheless, I never really regret telling my mother about it. Haha, a dramatic week. My life is exciting and trouble-filled and I am considering to film it into a movie. 这是不能說的秘密... Shhhh~

Wisdom Tooth Extraction

Well, I was very nervous and scared at the first time when I went into the surgery room. Lying down on the bed make me feel extremely scared due to the fact I know what is going through. Awful thoughts filled my mind, I was thinking the doctor will use hand drill to drill off the wisdom tooth. Well, the surgery is fine and I really think that my doctor is really. For those who is going for the extraction, you can try finding Dr Eugene Poh from AH. He is really a good doctor and I dont have alot of pain while removing the tooth. 8.5/10 is awarded to the AH dental clinic. Haha... I can eat fried chicken on the second day. Haha

Good Bye, Block Leave.

Ah~ the long block leave that always longing has already finished. It recharged my mental health to the max although I am not quite happy how it ended. I want a one month break after my ORD. But I guess it is abit impossible as I am the infamous 月光小王子(Meaning I always overspent each month, so I am left with nothing at the end of month.), but I dont care, I just want to give myself a well-deserved holiday next year June. It is not easy working in such places, where thing don't get better, cause the worse day is not here yet. Enough of the whinning, let me shared with you guys about the joy of block leave.

I think it is a blessing that you are able to sleep until noon and wake up realising you have nothing to do in the later afternoon. And able to stay up late without thinking about the difficulties of waking up in the morning. Haha~ But this stuff will soon be taken away since I am going off for work soon. I really missed my school life, slacking around lying around without thinking much. Not really too, I almost break my head while thinking about project. Guys, remember to miss me when I am away for 7 days. Feel free to sms me, call me but not during my duty timing. Now Ahead to bed, or else I will look zombie tml.

Dental Appointment

Well, let me share with you guys about my dental appointment that I went today. This is the first time after 4 years I last seen a Dentist. In the past, I always think that dentist is either a psycho or devil, enjoy the seeing people suffering in pain when they plucking our teeth. That why I have been delaying my appointment until my teeth can't take it. I think dental appointment is the most scaring experience. If I need do any operation or what, I rather be in deep in sleep or what. I do not want to see or feel anything at all. Even they were telling me it is only 15 mintues, but it will feel like hours. Sometime I need to go for two separate operation. T-T

Doctor managed to talk sense into me(I think I am easily convinced by anyone) and tell me go for partially conscious. I started to regret now. The main point is, the doctor say I am a brave boy, so no need to worry. I am 22 years old going 23. *Eyes rolling off*

Ya, doctor also say there might be a chance that I have nerve injuries but 1% only. I still very worried about that. T-T I try my best to be brave....

爱是什么

当我听到我的朋友和她男友分手时，我吃了一惊。 便问了她为什么做了这个选择？ 她说了可能是对方都累了，再也走不下去。 不过我觉得彼此还跟对方缠绵不清。这时的我， 心中出现了一万个问号。


是不放心对方生活开不开心？

还习惯了对方在自己的生活？

爱是什么？ 真爱又是什么？

如果真爱是两人的自私的需要之对方。 那爱一个人会好累，这时我真的不知道爱是什么了。 可能是长大了之后，梦想中的爱和现实的差距比想像的还要大。