Off Day 2

Woke up almost the same time as yesterday partly because my idiotic brother kick my bloody toes and now it still hurts. Things doesn't goes my way for these two day, everything that I planned to do is last minute cancel due to my grandmother is under critical condition. I was planning to meet one of my friend for a coffee session but then after I called the hospital for a update. The doctor updated me about her conidtion and next moment I am in TTSH.

I feel very gulity that I make Gabriel come all the way down to Compasspoint and meet me for 5 mins and even send me down to TTSH then left. Really touched by him, seriously. My grandmother is still under stable condition but still consider under low.

I am tired mentally, making decision treatment for my grandmother and informing everyone about what is happening but this is the time I must be stronger to protect my loved ones from get hurt. It is time to grow up. I need good rest after this.

Off Day 1

Today is my first day of my off, looking forward to the day itself but then my grandmother suddenly had a fever and start breathing very fast. No choice, I have to cancel all my appointment and thing to do to send her to TTSH. Luckily I made the right choice to call wei shan, she really help me alot by making the right choice without wasting any time. When I reached TTSH, her temperature is 40 degree which is fucking high and I keep pestering the nurse to attend to her first.

My whole morning is spend at TTSH, then I head for NYP to find all my lecturer who I didn't see them for months. Haha~ Enjoy myself talking and looking at some of the student work. I was very amazed by both good and very bad work. Hehe, I think I am like that when I was in school last time.


I realised that I need to spend sometime to think about some unsettled stuff. Just like Ms Ong said, ask yourself why you can't let go of it? Then each time you faced it, you will get stronger. So I think tomorrow I will start my Off day 2 by myself. I think I should get someone to go out with me.

Sunday, NTUC and Melvyn

Weekend is always short, once I blink my eyes, the next moment it is mounting week again. Why? Anyway, it is not that bad after all. I do enjoy myself very much specially being shuai during the Saturday and only that day. The rest is history. Wake up quite late in the afternoon because of the overhang last night.

I went to Hougang Mall to get some book in stuff, some stuff I have to drag for months and now it is done. So to reward myself by buying some waffle and come by the cake shop opposite the Bus Interchange.
"Auntie, I want Chocolate 95, full tank." I almost tell auntie that, I feel like I am in some Petrol Station pumping petrol in my car. Weird! but shu an can understand auntie language.

Back to track, I should shop for my book in stuff, I went over to NTUC. Due to my policy of not take any plastic if I can, I stuff all the thing in a small yellow bag.

Act healthy with all those fresh fruit and vitagen but hiden with alot of unhealthy foods.

Am I asking too much?

Recently, I begin to ask myself this question?

Am I asking too much from them?

Seriously, am I? Talk to Jonna about this last week and she told me this. "If you keeps expecting returns in everything, then the thing you doing to others won't be genuine from your heart." I do agree with what Jonna said but I am not God. Sometime or most of the time, I want to be appreciated by the thing I do. Yeah, appreciation is the word to describe what I want.

Everyone knows that thing won't turn out the way they wanted. Just leaving them disappointed times and times, again and again. It is too much I asked, I doubt so but it seems like I really over did this time. Should I hide and withdraw myself to help them? Or I just continue to be a easily disposable rubbish to them?

Time with myself

Seriously, I sometime wondered what did I wrong in my life or past life to suffer this kind of thing. I don't why I am so unlucky at times, do I owe you something? I though I already repay back plus extra interest and what else you still want?