Feels

I can't write anything out from my heart, I have no idea why this is so. People said that once you enter army, you loses your brain and come stupid. I do agree with that cause I seem to be like that, haha. Growing muscle not brain, turning into a Himbo now. This weekend seems to be quite a busy one. I stay at home for like only 2 hours in total. Haha~

Long Weekend

Enjoy the long weekend seem so relax and nice, I just wished that I could have more of that. Now, I am preparing to book in now. Same old feeling again, but I guess I can cope it better now. I do enjoy my weekend especially on saturday where I spend my time with my destined friend and some old secondary schoolmate. Catching good old time with them making me feel that I am older and older le. It is amazing to find out that we left HIHS 4 years old ago and now everyone seem to grow up and changes alot. Changes in life is needed, but can it go in a slower pace, I might not be able to catch up.

Serious Mood Swing

I guess I have a serious Mood swing now.

Life Story

I came across a very meaning story that I read on the book and it is sharing a story about "It Will Pass".

Coming out of the meditation hall, a novice monk told the old Zen master disappointedly, "Master, during my meditation, I had a lot of distracting thoughts. It was unbearly painful to keep my leg in the lotus posture. I was also often drowsy and even fell asleep during the mediation. This was so terrible!"
The Zen master replied, "It will pass."
One week later, the novice monk reported to the Zen master excitedly,"Master, today's meditation was so wonderful! My mind was very tranquil and very clear. I neither experienced any leg-pain nor felt drowsy."
The Zen master still replied in the same manner,"It will pass"

Sometime, life is fulled of ups and down and some unbearful pain stuff. Whether it is painful or a happy experiences, we still have to go through and some it will pass after all. No matter what happened to you in life, thing will change for the better and life is still filled with hopes. =)

my first entry using my E51

hai, dunno what to this time around. I guess i am really bored that i use my phone for blogging. Not so bad after all. Today i went out with my DF. First time after 4 year that all our "family" member gather once again. Everyone is taking photo like mad. Haha, i guess we really miss the day back in school. However, i feel that no matter what happened to our busy life. Everyone seem to cherish our group very much. But sometime we tends to neglect the fact we have to put in effort to make it work. So, i have to make sure i done my part this time round. Hehe =p

Hmmm, i am better now cause i think i am. Thanks for everyone concern. I am blessed with friend who cares and accept a crazy friend like me. Thanks and million thanks :)

Moodless

Hai~ I am back to what I feel last year le. Moody, lost and the main problem is I don't what is the really problem. I have been feeling not like myself this two week, why I don't what is the answer le. I need an answer, an answer to solve my problem and change back to my old self.

Perhaps, Taurus himself won't like changes, everything have to be the same then he will feel at home. Crying seem so unfamiliar to me now, I can't cry now and the heartaches that badly. Why it is so? I have no reason for that, I don't think that this is the problem I faced in camp although I feel terrible inside.

I am lost although I keep saying that for the past entires in the past. This time I need help.

Guess it's over now
cos I'm sitting here all alone
someone is knocking but it won't be you at my door
letting go is never easy
I've been learning it the hard way
I've been counting every minute and second
since the day you left